I am I because YOU are YOU

Since my birth, I am trying to understand the surroundings, the world, the air, the water, the people that surrounds me or to be put in simpler words – I am trying to recognize you directly as well as indirectly.
Now the question arises, how? When I was young, I was modulated by you to behave in a particular manner,, to react in a prescribed manner. You are the one who told me that I can run but I cant fly. You are certainly not ‘Morpheous’ of matrix who would have made me believe that I can even fly – it has been you who has made me believe and even restrict my capabilities. And as told by you, I never went a step ahead of those explained and trusted abilities and capabilities. If I talk in terms of communication system, you added white and colored noise to me (the signal) and later on, even whitened me to make me noise free but, alas, you couldn’t reconstruct me with 100% accuracy even when you adhered to Nyquist rate (Sampling Theorem).
You taught me so many things – walking, dancing, ‘bakar’, driving, maths, DSP, cooking, and lots more. You have now influenced me to an extent that you have now become a part of my life. You made me what I am today. Sometimes you were my parent, sometimes brother, sometimes sister, sometimes relative, sometimes friend, sometimes enemy, sometimes mentor and played a lot of roles in my life.
There have been times, when I felt like discovering more about myself, making your presence insignificant for me, when I wanted to listen to my inner self, but always, you stood in my way to become Neo of the matrix. You always returned everything I tried to believe and do while hiding those things from you. You have many a times, created circumstances that I reluctantly followed you in order to survive, and at other times, in a void attempt to be a part of you, accepted the things offered by you, even when I knew that you were not always a signal, most of the times you have been noise. But I agreed to mingle with you, invariably incompetent to any receiver to process me and take information out of me. You have processed me to an extent that now even when I wish to turn to signal, I cant, and would have to live as noise.
But lately, I have been successful to minimize your effect and to find a receiver which can process me successfully and turn me back to ‘a’ signal, which I have always wanted. My dream to be able to say one day, that yes, I am I because I am I, seems realizable. What I have to do is to stop considering you, but would you ever allow me to do that?
Even when you are not present physically, you are present in my thoughts, sometimes clipping, and at other times strengthening my wings. Even if through some techniques like meditation, I am able to get over you, you start affecting me in other forms – some material thoughts, a non living object and worst, divine force.
Hence, you have always been around, and shaped me in the way I am, and for this very noble reason, I thank you from the core of my heart – YOU are the one who made me what I am – It is because of you that I love myself and appreciate my surroundings, and therefore I love you more than anything and even myself.

Finally I will like to close with a thought –
I don’t believe that I am I because You are You,
rather, I know that,
I am I because You are You.

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